Theme and Variation.

I am in over my head. That Fray song came on in the car on the radio as I pulled into the drive just now. I was sort of blown away at how overwhelmed I feel at this point. I thought I was adjusting somewhat well into "adulthood," what with college and everything, but I just feel like life is too much. I am supposed to get a job and study hard and be responsible.

But I just want to be me. And I do not like working and I hate studying. I will have to work for the rest of my life and I want to have this time to be me. But this is not realistic nor is it appropriate.

But then I listened to "Indestructible" by Matisyahu. In it it says, "Fear nobody but his Majesty." I have no need to fear or to worry. All I need to know is that my God is on my side and that I can get through this. I can be me and grow up all at the same time. Now this is what I have. Years from now, what I have will be work and a family.

But forever I will be Indestructible.